Confession is in the air and I need to speak because those days are so harsh!!!!
Almost one year ago, I met a fantastic boy that I loved more than everything. I could give him my life but one month ago we broke up and I know that he still loves me and so do I.
But I know that now it's over and I have to move on and to forget him. I have some plans for my future, I have greats friends (I do love you my bitches...), and my life is not that bad lol.
But he took some things from me when he left, I'm now in life without weapons and so vulnerable.
I'm full of doubt and with no self-confidence.
Every thing that I see make me think of him, I am now just full of memories and I dun know if I could love someone else.
Before him I already had some troubles of trusting in myself and everything; but since it's over it gets worse and worse everyday.
I just feel so ugly, so useless and can bare myself.
Most of the time I hate myself !!!!
I'm fed up sometimes to hide my pain behind a smile....
He left me like a child...
Feel so alone, so childish, so sad, so blue, so ugly, so useless, so unbearable, so mad....
I dunno what to do exactly, I know I must take control and react but I haven't got the strenght!!!
For once in my life I'm lost.
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